We had class today, which went relatively well. We're going to be focusing on specific features of ASL in our interpretations now. Today we discussed fingerpspelling and taped a video. Friday when we have class again, we'll analyze it and meet with a mentor about it. We have another class that will start Friday too.
This evening I had an assignment. I knew that I was at times putting things out a little more English than ASL but felt like I was clear and the message was coming across. Seemed to get good feedback from my deaf mentor. But when we debriefed afterwards, I felt really inadequate. She was very nice and really was just pointing out things like anyone else has ever done but for some reason it hit me differently tonight. I normally have thick skin and don't take anything personally. Normally when someone asks what feedback I want, I just tell them to BRING IT! For some reason, that wasn't a good idea tonight. I wonder if it's because I felt like effective communication was happening but then got quite the opposite story from my mentor. Whatever it was, I don't like it! :(
So after the assignment, I was walking around outside and sat in a gazebo in the grassy area outside my apt for a while. As I sat and thought about things, I realized I talked with my fellow intern on the way home, talked on the phone with Mark after I got back, but hadn't really talked to God about it. So I did. I really was starting to feel lonely and homesick too. Maybe I'm just tired -- everything always seems worse when I'm tired. Anyway, I was really struggling and told God I needed some encouragement. A few minutes later I looked to my left and saw the adorable little white poodle puppies I had seen a few weeks ago! I walked over and talked to their owner who let me hold one again! I got all kinds of love and kisses from that sweet puppy! And I had a nice conversation with their owner. We exchanged names this time and learned more about each other. She lives in my building, so hopefully we'll run into each other more often! :)
I still feel a little down but somewhat encouraged too. I have a long, uninteresting assignment tomorrow that I'm not looking forward to. I'm going to bed soon so hopefully a good night's rest will help with a fresh perspective in the morning. Thanks for reading and praying!
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Isn't it wonderful how God provides everything we need? A co-worker and I have been getting together every morning to start our day off with prayer. It's really made a difference for both of us. It doesn't change the stress of our jobs but it changes us and that's what matters. I know it's hard to accept criticism (even when it's constructive) but remember you were specifically chosen for that program for your knowledge and ability.
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God's encouragement through HIS creation of creatures reminds me too of how much more loved I am even then them. I too had a visit from God this week with a hummingbird right outside my window at work. God is watching out and providing for you. I know you will continue to learn well.
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